I feel I'm like Quasimodo from "The Hunchback of Notre Dame" most of the time. Anyone I really like does not share the same feelings for me. This always happens. Couldn't I just have been made to not "like" anyone. I hate this. Whenever I go out, well anywhere really, I always see gorgeous women who are funny, kind, smart, christian. Who wouldn't like them? And then look at me. I had a brain tumor and now I am not who I used to be... I am literally a depressing person. I'm not gorgeous, anymore (I think). I am physically disabled. I wear a brace on my leg. Part of my memory is gone, I can't drive. Now which girl would you choose? Exactly. When I really like someone, I mean really like someone like doodle their name inside my notebook... jk... I'd never do that, and then we're hanging out with gorgeous women, what am I supposed to think. I just say to myself "Don't like him, he'll never like you!" I know it's the devil putting all these lies into my head, but I can't help feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, I still love all my friends. It's just that I want to be normal again, that's all. I want to be able to run and do gymnastics again. I want to do all the things I could do before my surgery. I could do none of them now. What can I do? Tell me Lord. It feels as if I'm not good at anything.
Sorry for being so depressing. This is me on, almost a regular basis. Well, I'm getting better.
