Likes...

Ok, here is a list of things I like in no particular order.

1. Sushi. Yummmmm. I could eat sushi all day!

2. Making my room as decorative as possible.

3. Photography.

4. The colors blue, green, and purple.

5. The number 4.

6. Books.

7. Air 1 and my Ipod.

8. Looking at my past photos.

9. Classical station on the radio.

10. Traveling.

11. Study and live God's word.

12. Water.

13. SLEEPING.

14. Collecting stuff (which I know I should be done with).

15. Hats. Love Them.

16. Polar Bears.

17. Word Finders.

18. Scrapbooking.

19. Making a chain out of starburst wrappers.

20. Watching movies (which I know I should stop)................

Today was a good day, a little boring though. In the morning, I walked on the treadmill and played ping pong with my mom; that was fun. Then my day was a little boring.
My mom says that I should make "a bunch" of new friends so I could hang out with them so she could "stay at home in peace". Well ok, I added what's inside the quotes. She just wants me to go out with friends and have fun and I get that. I'm not like a popular girl and have friends left and right; I have only a few good friends. I know that people are busy with their own stuff, Ok I said it, STUFF. And I'm an independant gal, so everythings all good :)(:
I could understand that hanging out with my mom all day is (I bet) really tiring for her. I don't drive (I know, a 21 year old who doesn't drive, eek) so my mom has to drive me everywere, well almost. I mean I'm not a spoiled child who tells my mom to drive me places; DRIVE ME TO LAZERSTAR! I'm not like that. I know that I could take the bus, but my mom would rather drive me.

Today was the first out of many bible studies my churchmates (instead of classmates) and I are going to have. 4 people showed up (which were people from church). It was great, just learning about what we all wanted to get out of this bible study. Of course learn more about God and the bible, but to also have fellowship and teach others about Him. So there wasn't actually bible study today, but next week there will be. We are going to try and have the bible study in a room inside PCC. Well, when we were done, a friend of mine took me home (her mom was driving). Her mom was saying that she had a few friends where their husbands treat them as if they are their property, telling them what they can and cannot do. So the husbands can do whatever they want while the wives have no life of their own. That's sad. Having to ask your spouse if you can hang out with your sister. What's wrong with that? Everything.

Yay! Today's my parents anniversary! My dad is at work so when he comes home we're (me and my parents and maybe my sister) going to go to a restaurant.

It's raning so hard outside. Luckily it was only light drizzling when bible study ended because I would then be running from the car to my house in the rain.

Relationships... ugghhhh

Yesterday, I went to church with my parents. I was pretty happy that day also. They went to the sanctuary while I went to the college career group. In there, the leader was talking about relationships with friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, spouses, etc. We were not created to live alone. I felt so sad afterwards. Am I going to die alone? When my parents are no longer here, then who will take care of me. I'm 21 years old (for the moment) and you probably think I can take care of myself and you're maybe right. Who will help me live a life when it's difficult for me to get a job? Well, I got sad at the end of our time together. After prayer, everyone started talking to one another and I was the only person not talking to anyone. I felt so lonely and so out of place. I got up and walked out of the room not saying goodbye to anyone. I know this whole thing might sound a little childish. I mean, I should get over this. I think into everything such as what they're thinking or doing. Most of the time I feel sad because of what I think.
My dad said that I have low self-esteem problems because I think so negatively of myself. I think that people are nice to me just because they have to be. I also think people are my friend because they want something from me, they're using me. I think that no one will like me because I'm so sad all the time, which I'm not anymore, and I think that I'm not funny.
No guy will like me because there are funny, smart, kind, gorgeous women out there, so why choose me?
I know I'm sounding a little depressed, but that's how life is for me.
Well, to end with a high note, my parents anniversary is tomorrow. 25 years they've been married. Wow!

Hello there!

Hey long time no... talk...? I haven't written on this Blog because I'm not really a good writer. In my head I am, but then I speak and it all comes out the way that I don't want it to sound. Sometimes I don't even make sense. But o well, I will type on.
I got my hair cut today, short. It looks alright in my mind. After the "hair cutter" (what're they called again?) cut my hair, it looked so good; I actually liked it. But since my hair is wavy (not in the good way), after I took a shower, it became this wavy, nasty looking mushroom. When I wear a head band my hair looks decent. Luckily there's a way you can fix this. Hair straighteners.