So, I haven't been writing on this bloggy thing for quite some time. For the first time, I've been happy. Not just on the outside appearance, but I've actually been really happy :)(: Ever since I started going back to church (not just Sunday mornings) I've started to make friends who believe in the same God I do. They are such sweet people :)(: So I guess I've been so busy that I just pushed away my depression for more than 3 months. WOOOHOOOO!!! Haha. But I need to let out my feelings to a couselor or something.
I really want to be in a relationship. I see all of my friends in relationships and it just seems to be so great. That's not the only reason. I want him to tell me I'm beautiful everyday so that would drown out the voices inside my head telling me otherwise. I want him to treat me like a lady. I might be old school but I want him to open doors for me. I want him to have respect towards my parents, and so on... but I can't see myself with any man. That's probably why I like reading Love Inspired (christian books) books. They take me away from this life for a brief time, and in that brief time the book is my home. But then I always have to come back to reality.