Please Stay...

Ok... my mom's best friend is staying with us for 2 weeks from Korea and today is her last day here.  She is a citizen of the US... and my mom asked her if she wanted to stay here with us until her daughter finds her a condo in Tennessee.  She said that she wanted to stay but I think she has a lot of pride and she's really stubborn.  She does not like where she's living in Korea.  She said that she is living in a poor area where there are bugs in her apartment everyday.  She said that she envy's us because of all we have.  O my... she could have this too!  My mom said that they're getting older and that this will probably be their last time seeing each other... because how many times are we going to have the chance to go to Tennessee? 

New leg brace!

Today, I'm going to be getting my new leg brace.  Yipeee.  The one that I have now hurts my right foot, and the Velcro straps are all worn out so my foot doesn't stay in place inside of my brace.  I'm not sure if my brace is the reason as to why my foot and lower leg is hurting me.  The brace that I have now is a one piece brace and looks like this one.

The one that I am getting today is a two piece brace. 
I hate leg braces!  They all hurt!  I guess I'm emotional now... I'm emotional almost everyday.  Now my leg has pain going up every once in a while. 

Go Lin!

My sister, Lindsay, got a job at Cal Poly Pomona in pay roll almost a year ago.  No more Pet Co!  No more weekly schedules.  She now has an 8 - 5 job.  Wow!  Good for her.  She got the job because a friend of hers, who works at Cal Poly, told her about the job opening and turned in her resume for her.  So it's thanks to her that my sister has that job.  Things are changing so much.  My sister has a new job and I'm going to school again.  That's why I like to have a journal and this blog.  I like reading what happened last year or 5 years ago and see how much I've improved and how much my family has improved.  

I must tell you the truth though.  I do get jealous from time to time.  I know that I shouldn't and I should just be happy for her, but it sometimes is very difficult.  

Feeling down...

On Facebook, I joined so many brain tumor and traumatic brain injury groups.  There are people just like me out there spread across the U.S.  They know what I'm going through.  I would read their stories and I would so relate.  Sheesh, I really wish that I could hang out and become friends with at least one of them.  Sometimes it feels like no one understands what I'm going through.  Simple things can make me cry.  Simple things can make me angry.  I act so much younger than my age.  I still live with my parents.  I haven't even had a boyfriend before.   My bday is next month and I'll be 30.  THIRTY!! And I haven't even had a boyfriend.  That's pathetic.  I'm pathetic.  I want to just be normal again.  You know... as I grow older, I see how much life does "suck".  It's not fair to any of us; it certainly isn't for me.   

Friends can be toxic

I've met this lady I think 4 years ago.  She has a different view of life than I do.  Whenever I invited her over, she would bring someone else.  Like my birthday 2 years ago... I invited her... and she brought her boyfriend.  Ok... he was not invited and he was not my friend.  She said she invited someone else also but he didn't show up.  She should've asked me first if she could invite others.  And when she was with her boyfriend, it seemed as if she only cared about that relationship.  Ya relationships are important, but if you invite someone to your place, you shouldn't make them feel as if they're invisible.  They would fight and fight.  I can't drive so I couldn't go anywhere.  I thought she would be a great friend... but the more and more I think about it... I think that she's just using me to get what she wants.  She doesn't drive right now and neither do I for totally opposite reasons.  Well, I went to Starbucks about 2 weeks - 3 weeks ago to see her and talk to her.  It seemed as if she was so caught up in the fact that she broke up with this guy 6 months ago and I wasn't there for her.  She didn't even try and talk to me on Facebook.  She wants me to do all the work?  WELL WHAT ABOUT ME?  WHAT ABOUT THE THINGS THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH?  Is that even important to her?  It's like she doesn't even care about me, only her.  I am disabled, I need the right type of friends around me... I need people to understand me and my problem(s).  She has never been there for me.  Things go more than 1 way... and with her it seemed as if everything was always going in her direction.  When she talked with me, it seemed as if what I was saying didn't even matter enough to pay attention.  She was looking around at other people and not at the person who was talking.  Ok, some people might say they need to look around also because that helps them concentrate... so she could've been paying attention.  She said she was sorry to me... but then she said, "but..." and flipped the whole thing around on me... to where everything was my fault.  She might be a great friend... just not for me.   

I'm back!!!!

Hey!  It's been forever!  A lot has happened in my life.  I'm now married with 1 child and finally live on my own... ummmm... ya right.  Life has been bumpy.  In 2016, I went back to college.  In 2019, if everything goes well, I'm going to be getting my AA Degree in child development.  I love children... so I'm going to be a TA for preschoolers!  O my... I have to observe a preschooler or a toddler for the whole semester.  So I observe a toddler who is 2 years old, and his name is Logan, and I observe on Fridays.  Logan is sooooooo adorable!  I follow him and write what he does... and a lot of the time he wants to play with me.  That makes me kinda want a child of my own... but I know it will be very difficult... and besides... I need a husband first. 
2 weeks or so ago, I took this pill to help me sleep.  Boy did it do it's job... but at the wrong time.  I was going to the bathroom... I got up and turned a corner... and "BOOM." I fell asleep standing up... I fell to the ground like a log.  I yelled out, "mom, dad," before I hit the ground.  When I woke up the next morning... my tooth (it's a crown) hurt... I didn't know until last week that I broke my tooth from the root.  Ouchie!
My right foot hurts when I walk.  When I twist my foot in a certain position, it feels like my ankle goes out of joint.  I went to Kaiser Urgent Care a couple of days ago and got an x-ray of my foot.  I though that there would be something wrong, but the PA (physicians assistant) said that my foot is a little inflamed but that's it.  WHAT!?  Wow, will my foot just get better if I get rid of the inflammation?  I really don't want foot pains for the rest of my life.