Welcome back emo!

Yesterday, the 29th of June, Sue O emo left Korea for good and came to stay at my parents house.  Just for the time being until her daughter finds her a condo in Tennessee, which I heard last night that her daughter already got her a place.  So I guess she's not going to stay long.
This whole thing is messed up to me though, just listening to the story of her and her daughter.  If I were emo, I definitely would not take the condo in Tennessee.  I mean the condo will be under her daughter's name and she doesn't want emo to see her granddaughter at all.  She's only going to see emo once or twice a month to help out with the groceries.  So the reason she's moving to Tennessee?  I don't know. 

Unfair

Well... so my dad took me to the Department of Rehabilitation self-service portal today.  It took about an hour to get there.  I know that my dad would rather be doing something that he wants to do.  My mom told me and my dad that we were going out with the pastor and his family soon.  We meaning all 3 of us.  Well... when my dad and I got home, my mom told us that the pastor and his family and my mom went out to eat at the place I really wanted to go.  I know I'm acting like such a child but my mom said that all of us were going.  She doesn't want just the 3 of us to go... I know she says that we're going to go... but we never do.
I think that my mom is so selfish sometimes.  She does what she wants to do and leaves dad driving me to appointments.  Tomorrow I need to go to the dentist... which is in Tustin... so of course my dad has to take me while my mom goes out with her friends. 

Crap!

My life right now sucks!  I said it... sucks!  It feels like I have no one in my little bubble.  I'm 30... in ten more years I'll be 40... and where has my life gone?  I'm still a child.  I do childlike things all the time.  When people say "just stop" I wanna just punch them.  They don't know how I'm feeling... they only know the me that they see.  The same with everyone else.  My tooth is gone... I'm lazy... there's nothing to do at home (except watch tv and read, but I really don't want to do those all day).  It's super boring because none of my friends are down here.  April has her baby and a husband... but I have none of those.  I really just want a boyfriend.  Maybe I'll never have one.  All of these horrible thoughts get into my brain when I feel down.