Cars...

There are so many cars on the road with crazy people driving them.  I remember driving with my mom on the freeway.  My mom wanted to switch lanes so she slowed down to let the other car pass (let's call this car Lulu).  Lulu slowed down while my mom slowed down.  Lulu sped up while my mom sped up.  When my mom finally got in front of Lulu... Lulu switched lanes, and flicked us off.  Then there was this other vehicle, Sam, that my mom cut off... not on purpose though. Sam got in the other lane, then got in front of us and he was stopping constantly.... drive... break.... drive... break... so my mom would hit him.  Wow! I can't believe how impatient and crazy people can get.  

If you had 1000 years to live, what would you do? 

Boys Over Flowers

Exhibition of Fireworks

The Secret Lovers

Spring Waltz

Lie To Me

The Beauty of Big Bear :)(:

Hi! Let me tell you what I did 2 days ago.

My parents and I went to Big Bear for a day. It was really awesome! We left Ace (our cute little puppy) at home with Lindsay and her bf Daniel to watch him.

While we were there, I wanted to go on a tour, but we didn't know where to find a place to book one. My dad stopped at a loan office and the lady who works there called the man (Jim). She was so nice :)(: Jim came and we got inside the military jeep to go on our adventure. It was an adventure alright. It started raining so hard. I knew it was going to rain but not that hard. It was the type of vehicle that didn't have sides where the windows are supposed to be, so we were soaking. I forgot my camera :( ): at home so I used my cell phone to take the pictures (which I didn't know how to zoom). And that sucks because I was charging my camera up for today. I always forget something :/ Well, Jim was so funny. I seriously thought that we were going to die up in the mountains. True story. There was so much water that I thought that the wheels were going to start floating in the water. Luckily I'm safe at home :)(:

On our drive uphill, there was a man who lost his car and was searching and scared in the pouring rain. We picked him up. He said that he found his car up a hill and behind trees and more trees. When he got out of the vehicle he said to Jim "You saved my life". WoW! If it wasn't for us wanting to go on a tour, that man wouldn't have gotten the help that he'd gotten.

When we got back to our car, about 2 hours later, Jim said that he was an usher for the "My Fair Lady" play and he asked if we wanted to see it. He said that we would get in for free. Double WoW :)(:

My dad really wanted to go because back when he was playing in the band, he played in the pit for "My Fair Lady". My mom had a headache though. She said that she can deal with the heat but she doesn't like the cold. We spent what seems to have been 2 hours debating on whether we should go to the play. My mom said that my dad and I should go and she would be waiting in the car. No WaY. I told her that I would wait in the car with her. She also said that we would go looking around in stores.

When we got to the place they were having the play, I told my dad that I would go inside with him and tell Jim that my mom wasn't feeling good and that we would just wait in the car. He quickly said something like "Is she alright? Let's go to the car". When we got to the car, he convinced my mom to see the play... which was brilliant :)(:

Well at the end we went to see the play, which was amazing! My mom was happy that she stayed.

My parents got Jim's card afterward so that whenever we're in Big Bear again, we'd give him a call :)(:

My parents and I are in Big Bear right now. We went on a 6 wheel drive military vehicle tour... It's raining so hard.

Catalina Island: Campus By The Sea April 15 - 18, 2011 2011

I went to Catalina Island with the Lake Ave Church college group (Pastor Jeff, Kirsten, David, Saudia, and Steffenie) and the InterVarsity group from PCC on April 15th and came back on April 18th. That was an awesome weekend! We studied the first 14 pages of Mark from the Bible, which was a little difficult for me because my mind wanders off sometimes, well, a lot of the time.

Before we were at Catalina, Jeff drove the 5 of us to the Long Beach Terminal, which is where we got to meet the InterVarsity group. Steffenie and Saudia, who I hung out with most of the 4 days, wanted to see what was at the snack booth... and guess what? I bought some cheesecake which was about 330 calories... whoa! and it was a little slice of cheesecake... but it was good :)(:

Then we had to go to the Catalina Express which was awesome. We sat next to Jennifer who is from the InterVarsity Christian Fellowship. Behind us is Pastor Jeff making a funny face :)(:

Then when we got to Catalina, we had to take another boat to Campus By the Sea. Catalina Island is so beautiful... I could just stare at its "beautyness" all day...

When we got there, the person in charge told us that our cell phones would not work up there. So the whole time I was up there, my phone was turned off... and it died anyway :)(: It was very peaceful :)(: He also said that the cabins do not have bathrooms attached to them, which would be scary if I woke up in the middle of the night and needed to use the restroom because our cabin was about a 5 minute walk down wood stairs and sand. The girls slept in these little cabins and the boys slept inside tent cabins... wow.

On the second day on our break-time, which was at around 1 pm - 4 pm, Saudia and Steffenie really wanted to go kayaking, this was going to be my first time! WaHoooo. To get to the kayaks you had to walk on so many rocks and pebbles... which was a no no for me because I could break my already weak foot, without my brace of course. So I kept both my shoes on. Afterwards, my feet were soaking wet... which was a bummer, but luckily I brought sandals. That meant I had to walk slowly and point my foot outward. Sometimes, people had to help me walk, which was okay in the beginning. It felt like I was slowing everybody down.

I saw a buffalo everyday, which was so awesome. Let's name the buffalo Wanda. Wanda was in the volleyball court just sitting down, relaxing, watching all the people taking pictures of her. She was a nice buffalo :)(: but what she left behind was stinky... you know what I mean.

On Sunday night, there was a bonfire. Most of us had smore's, which were delicious. Then we were playing a game that had to do with memory... It was never my turn so I didn't need to remember anyones name. You need to add hand movements to the name that you choose. Mine was JRow... I only remembered 2 names out of about 20... Gus the Bus and Jenn Zen. Mymemory is horrible.

On Monday morning (around 1 am) some of the InterVarsity members and Steffenie and Saudia went for a 10 minute hike up to a cliff which had benches on it and a cross... to just relax and reflect on what was learned. I wasn't wearing my brace, which was a no no for me, but luckily nothing happened to my foot :)(: Well, I started getting into my testimony... I think a girl who is in the InterVarsity group asked me about my problem. It's kinda emotional for me so I started crying. They stood in a circle and prayed for me. Then Saudia gave her testimony, which was great. We shouldn't bottle our problems inside ourselves. Then Bryan (who was in the InterVarsity) told me that he had cancer at a young age... He's in remission now for 4 years... wow. So many miracles. I know that me surviving my surgeries should be a miracle for me, but it really isn't. I know that I shouldn't look at my disability as something that'll hold me back from doing what I most want/meant to do. God made me the way that I am for a purpose.

Then at around 3 am (I think), we all hiked downward, and they said goodnight and we went to our cabin. If we went inside the cabin, everyone would have woken up... so we decided to walk to the cafeteria, where almost everyone who went on the hike with us was. We all drank hot cocoa and coffee. There was this guy, Gus, there who said something along the lines of "afterwards can I speak to you and Saudia?" Sure. He's from another group that came to Campus By The Sea on Sunday. He said that he was there when Saudia and I were giving our testimony's. We talked for a little while, then we said goodnight to him. We were going to go into our classroom, but we saw a red light inside and we heard mens' voices coming from inside... which was a little scary. It was still dark outside by the way. Steffenie opened the door a little bit and it slammed shut.

The 3 of us were terrified, so we went to the shore and just sat there looking at the beautiful ocean and smelling the salty breeze.

We didn't go to sleep at all. Then at around 7 am we went into the classroom and took a 30 minute nap... and I'm not sure I took one or not. We had breakfast at 8 am and class I think started at around 9 am. Natalia (InterVarsity's leader) was surprised that the 3 of us stayed awake during the Mark 1 lesson. I stayed awake because I was nibbling on goldfishes. Thank you food for keeping me awake... haha.

I felt so depressed at the end of our stay at Campus By the Sea though. All these (bad) emotions started getting in my head again, and it partially was because of all these small things all rolled up into one humongous thing. I started crying at the dinner table, so like always, I couldn't help myself. I excused myself, and Jeff went over to where I was to talk to me. Then we went back up to the table and finished our meal. When I was finished, I left to go to the bathroom, and when I came back, Gus was walking towards me. We sat down while he was talking to me. He prayed for me right before I had to leave for the boat. He's very sweet; he doesn't even know me and it's like I've known him for a while. God has many plans for our lives. I know that I should not worry about what other people think of me. If I didn't, then I probably wouldn't get depressed most of the time. I should leave all my problems and all my pain in the safest place possible, God's hands.

My Name is Kim Sam Soon

Learning Korean...

Ok, I got Rosetta Stone in Korean about a month ago. YAY! The only thing is I haven't even opened the package yet. Really big procrastinator (is that how you spell it. O well). I have so many family members in Korea who don't know how to speak English, so that means I need to be fluent in Korean, and hopefully soon.

When I went to Korea for the first time with my mom and sister in 2006, I had an amazing time. There I met my moms family (Korean family). They were so kind and funny. We got to see my grandma for the last time, but I didn't know that then. My mom had to be the interpreter for me and my sister. I wanted to have long conversations with the rest of my family, but couldn't. We stayed there for almost a month, then we flew to Japan for 4 days.

I miss Korea so much. I hope that when I go down there again, I will know how to read and write in Korean fluently.

Thomas Kinkade

Hello... anyone there?

Ok, I read "How Colleges Can Identify Depressed Students" on the computer. Everything that they said is true for me. How can I get rid of this? Is there a cure? I don't want to take medication, so the best choice for me right now is to see a psychiatrist. It doesn't work for me though. Whenever I was depressed and I needed to see my psychiatist, it wouldn't be my day, and whenever I would see my psychiatrist, I would have nothing to talk about because I would be happy.... blah. Blah to everything. Life is so crazy. It has it's ups and downs. Maybe I should make a "Depressed Journal" and write in it only when I'm depressed. Write about how I'm feeling that day, what triggered the depression, etc. But that's where laziness comes in. I'm too lazy to do a lot of things now. KILL DEPRESSION. KILL LAZINESS.

‎"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone."
Audrey Hepburn

"The hair GOD gave me is a beautiful crown. My arms, my neck, my nose and my ears - they are like precious jewels. My skin type and body shape are woven together like the costliest fabric. My genes are nourished to fruition by culinary delicacies. GOD is impassioned when He declares, "The splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect."

Michelle Graham

Laughs and tears :)(:

Hello, hello. How are you this fine evening? Would you like to take a walk with me down memory lane? Good. Let's go.

First I was born. Who remembers that? Fast forward 5 years. Surgery and all that jazz. Being normal and free... yay? Fast forward again. Another surgery. Fast forwrd . Another surgery. Fast forward. Gamma Knife. Fast forward. Having faith in GOD. Having my ups and downs in life, just like everyone else. Getting baptized. Finally, giving my testimony.

I am blessed to have the life that I have. My friends, family, and the people I bump into and have long converstions with. I can see little by little that my life is changing for the better. Yay!

Testimony

Ok, on Thursday I gave my testimony to my college group, which I wanted to do a few months ago, but as Thursday was coming around the corner, I had my doubts. Well, I did it. On Thursday when the Pastor called my name to stand in front and give my testimony, I could feel my heart pounding, and for a brief second, I wanted to run out the door. One of the first things I said was that I wasn't going to look at anyone while giving my testimony because if I did, I might laugh. At least that made a few people laugh :)(: There were a couple of people that shed some tears. I had to stop reading for a few seconds to wipe away the tears dripping down my cheek. I read it at home and didn't cry, so why how come I did on Thursday? My testimony was 41/2 pages long, but when I was reading it, it seemed as if it were much shorter. I really hope that my testimony touched the lives of many people. After I was finished, many people gave me hugs and said that I did a great job!
A friend said that they see a wonderful change in me. I'm glad that they do.