Hello Maryland!!!

    I flew to Maryland to visit my sister Becki, nephews Justin and Ryan, and brother-in-law Barry on July 12 - 25.  I had a great time and would love to do that again in the future.  Justin is my oldest nephew who's I think 21 and Becki were the main ones who were doing things with me, which was fine.  I would've loved to do things with Ryan also.  The second week I was there, it started to rain nonstop.  Then, the day I was going to be leaving Maryland, it was delayed 2 times.  When I got home, it was 2 in the morning.  I also read 2 books in Maryland... and then 5 more in the summer.  That shows you how much I spent time with friends.
    I am also trying to lose weight along with my dad.  I lost 18 pounds.  It all started when my tooth had to be taken out. 
   
   

Welcome back emo!

Yesterday, the 29th of June, Sue O emo left Korea for good and came to stay at my parents house.  Just for the time being until her daughter finds her a condo in Tennessee, which I heard last night that her daughter already got her a place.  So I guess she's not going to stay long.
This whole thing is messed up to me though, just listening to the story of her and her daughter.  If I were emo, I definitely would not take the condo in Tennessee.  I mean the condo will be under her daughter's name and she doesn't want emo to see her granddaughter at all.  She's only going to see emo once or twice a month to help out with the groceries.  So the reason she's moving to Tennessee?  I don't know. 

Unfair

Well... so my dad took me to the Department of Rehabilitation self-service portal today.  It took about an hour to get there.  I know that my dad would rather be doing something that he wants to do.  My mom told me and my dad that we were going out with the pastor and his family soon.  We meaning all 3 of us.  Well... when my dad and I got home, my mom told us that the pastor and his family and my mom went out to eat at the place I really wanted to go.  I know I'm acting like such a child but my mom said that all of us were going.  She doesn't want just the 3 of us to go... I know she says that we're going to go... but we never do.
I think that my mom is so selfish sometimes.  She does what she wants to do and leaves dad driving me to appointments.  Tomorrow I need to go to the dentist... which is in Tustin... so of course my dad has to take me while my mom goes out with her friends. 

Crap!

My life right now sucks!  I said it... sucks!  It feels like I have no one in my little bubble.  I'm 30... in ten more years I'll be 40... and where has my life gone?  I'm still a child.  I do childlike things all the time.  When people say "just stop" I wanna just punch them.  They don't know how I'm feeling... they only know the me that they see.  The same with everyone else.  My tooth is gone... I'm lazy... there's nothing to do at home (except watch tv and read, but I really don't want to do those all day).  It's super boring because none of my friends are down here.  April has her baby and a husband... but I have none of those.  I really just want a boyfriend.  Maybe I'll never have one.  All of these horrible thoughts get into my brain when I feel down. 

Implant

I've never had an implant before and didn't know that it would take so long to heal.  Wednesday, May 30th was the day.  I went inside the dentist's office and then it started.  He (the dentist) put a post where my front tooth was.  The dentist numbed my mouth... but I could hear everything that he was doing to my fake tooth.  Hearing what was going on was painful enough.  
I cannot eat anything hard and crunchy now, only soft things for 6 months. Wow.  No more meat... unless I cut it up into tiny pieces... but then it won't be the same, no more chips, no more candy... which is probably a good thing... that'll make me lose weight.  That means that I'll have to go to my sister Becki's house in Maryland in July like this... and I'll have to go to school like this.  

Yesterday, Saturday, my parents took me to the dentist, and he gave me a temporary tooth.  So, I can put that on whenever I go places... but the tooth is just for show... I can't chew anything on it... 

The whole thing that the dentist/surgeon did was kinda cool.  The bone needs to be built up more to give it more strength to hold the implant post.  They added my own stem cells and blood to my gums to cover up the post that they already implanted.  When the bone grows thicker, it will fill in all the gaps between the threads of the post for strength.  That process will take about 6 months.  Then they will need to put the imbutment on top of the post.  Lastly, the tooth will be glued and/or screwed on top of the imbutment.  

Tooth... ughhh

I took this pill called the chamomile sleeping pill (or something like that) maybe 3 months ago, and I passed out while standing up.  Luckily I didn't break anything like my neck.  The only thing that I damaged was my tooth.  Well, I'm going into the dentist's office for the 2nd time on the 30th of May.  I think that the dentist is going to take my whole tooth out.  Then for 2 weeks or months I'm going to be wearing a fake tooth (which I can take out at night).  I'm going to be having an implant... fun stuff.  At least summer break started yesterday, so I don't need to worry about school and the pain at the same time.  It takes 6 months to heal.  Wow. 

Please Stay...

Ok... my mom's best friend is staying with us for 2 weeks from Korea and today is her last day here.  She is a citizen of the US... and my mom asked her if she wanted to stay here with us until her daughter finds her a condo in Tennessee.  She said that she wanted to stay but I think she has a lot of pride and she's really stubborn.  She does not like where she's living in Korea.  She said that she is living in a poor area where there are bugs in her apartment everyday.  She said that she envy's us because of all we have.  O my... she could have this too!  My mom said that they're getting older and that this will probably be their last time seeing each other... because how many times are we going to have the chance to go to Tennessee? 

New leg brace!

Today, I'm going to be getting my new leg brace.  Yipeee.  The one that I have now hurts my right foot, and the Velcro straps are all worn out so my foot doesn't stay in place inside of my brace.  I'm not sure if my brace is the reason as to why my foot and lower leg is hurting me.  The brace that I have now is a one piece brace and looks like this one.

The one that I am getting today is a two piece brace. 
I hate leg braces!  They all hurt!  I guess I'm emotional now... I'm emotional almost everyday.  Now my leg has pain going up every once in a while.